It is like the song says you got to know when to hold them and know when to fold them. I have been holding my pain and emotions inside sense March and now in mid Aug. I think the time has come for me to fold my hand. I had a fight with someone I thought was a wonderful friend in March. I wrote her an apology, that was never acknowledged, I made a call to her house and was hung up on, I took down 2 blogs she objected to, and what did I get for all my efforts to keep the person I thought was my friend? She put me on ignore. I waited for months for her heart to soften and her to forgive me, but it is not happening she still has me on ignore and everyone knows there is no talking things through if the other person can not hear you. I thought about sending her a thank you card for all the nice things she did for me before she started hating me, but i figured she would just threw it away unread.
I guess there is nothing left for me to do but give up the dream that we could fix the friendship, and move on without her. It hurts a lot to even think of leaving her behind. We were m,ore connected then anyone else I ever met, on a psychic level at least. I learned a very long time ago no matter how much you love someone or miss them a broken friendship can not be mended by just one person. Both people must want it for the friendship to heal, and clearly she does not as she has tossed me away like garbage. I have cried for months every time I looked at one of the presents she sent me in the short time I knew her. The loss hurts so much. Another friend said I should box them up out of sight, but I just could not do it. I kept hoping she would come back to me.
Lately my mood has shifted some. I have began thinking maybe i read her all wrong, maybe she did not really care for me as much as I thought she did. I have even began to wonder if I still want her back. Would a real friend have left a friend in so much emotional pain for this long? or would they have forgiven their friend for being human. Humans make mistakes ! We are none of us without flaws. I think maybe for my own health maybe I should just fold my hand and give up on ever fixing this friendship.
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LET'S ALL REMEMBER THE ONLY PERFECT PERSON DIED ON A CROSS THOUSANDS OF YEARS AGO.
